Boulder

Went into Boulder today with Stephanie and met up with Ben. it was a freezing day but really nice. we went out to eat at a cajun/creole breakfast place after church. great food, too bad it ripped up my stomach a bit. We did some shopping and wondered the city. all in all a nice day.

now i'm home and my apartment is really cold, as I wait for my loud heater to rev up and get to heating I can't help but be so greatful for this apartment to myself. as much as I loved living with Jen (my most previous house mate) I can't help but know that this year living by myself has been nothing but revealing to me. I was talking today with Stephanie about our situations of being in a new state, new job/school situation and how odd of a transition it has been. when I leave for Cali on wednesday I will have lived in my apartment exactly 6 months. I'm amazed at how quickly time has passed. I still have no clue where most things are, how to get from point a to b and then to point c without getting lost.

I was longing for warmer weather, familiar streets, stores and faces today. I miss my friends a lot. I sometimes hate reading Heidi's blog, not because I don't love to read what she writes and thinks about and feels, but because it makes me realize how much I'm not apart of it all anymore. It's weird to say outloud (or type er whatever) but I still don't know what I'm doing here in CO or how long I'll be here or if I'll be here forever. As much as I love it or think that I love it it's still a "foreign land" and I feel like an alien.

I'm starting my new year's resolution a little early this year... I need to process more. I'm working out the details of that statement still but I really know that I need to "talk" my life out more than I am and I think here at dtillion.blogspot.com is nice place to start. so be expecting more introspection... i hope.