good news

well, my grandpa passed a swallow test this morning. which is such a relief. this means that he can in a few days be moved to a rehab facility to start his recovery process. so as of now things seem to be improving dramatically. Praise God for that!

so for now I will be here through finals.

Go Bruins!

despite my own heavy burdens I was thrilled to cheer (from my sofa) UCLA to victory against Belmont in the first round of the NCAA tourney.

I've not been myself. i've been in a hard place.

my grandpa had a massive stroke on Monday night. He laid on his floor in his own house all night unable to move because he was paralyzed on his left side. I'm tentatively making plans to miss my finals to be at home with him and my family. of course no one wants someone they love to die, but i especially would have a very hard time recovering from it right now.
He needs healing like only the maker can give.

I came across this song by Jill Phillips on my friend James' blog
It's been a great comfort to me.


Oh gently lay your head
Upon my chest
And I will comfort you like a mother while you rest
And the tide can change so fast
But I will stay
The same through past the same in future the same today

I am constant
I am near
I am peace that shatters all your secret fears
I am holy
I am wise
I’m the only one who knows your heart’s desires
Your heart’s desires

Oh weary tired and worn
Let out your sighs
Drop that heavy load you hold cause mine is light
And I know you through and through
There’s no need to hide
I want to show you love that is deep and high and wide

I couldn't, ok.

I tried watching "What Lies Beneath" tonight on TV. I couldn't do it. I was too scared. I know what you're thinking, it's not that scary, geeze. But it was. I couldn't do it, ok? I tried and got too scared. So I rummaged through the channels most of the evening remembering why I try to go out on Sat. nights.
It snowed yesterday, at least I think it was yesterday or maybe it was the day before... but that really doesn't matter. what matters is that it snowed and it's been cold the last couple of days. Which seems so weird to me because just last week we were breaking records for how warm it is. this place called Colorado is weird.
I'm nearing the end of my third quarter at school. I've been wishing that it was my last quarter. I'll be really glad when it's done, that's all. tempted to quit again...
I'm coming home after the quarter. I'm really really looking forward to it. My pops is taking me wine tasting. It's gonna be great!

practical

Finished my practical on Tuesday for the plated desserts section of my class. It was really tough and am so glad that it is over. I'm sure i did fine, but I found myself very dissapointed with my results when i took them to my chef for critique. I haven't seen any scores yet but more than anything i'm glad it's over. This section is bread. Can't wait to get into it.